I have a problem...
Ok, ya'll. I need some advice. If ya'll will remember this post then you will remember my friend Jimmy, and that we were engaged.
Well, I am still friends with his mother. We speak on the phone about once a week or so, and today she took me to lunch for my birthday.
A few weeks ago she told me that she had gone to the bank a couple of months back to clear out Jimmy's safe deposit box. In there she found our wedding rings. I still have my engagement ring, but Jimmy had put his wedding ring, and the part of my ring that was to be "fixed" to the engagement ring to make my wedding ring in the box. She wanted to know if I would like to have it. I said, "Yes, Ma'am. I think I would." So, she gave it to me today at lunch. Not sure why I wanted it, but I did/do and now have it.
She also wants me to come over and spend some weekend with her. She REALLY wants me to come over. I know she is in poor health, and she really could use someone over there. I know she is lonely. The problem is, I still do not feel comfortable going over there. I really don't. It isn't just fear. I REALLY don't want to go.
Now, I feel guilty. I have made excuses until now, and in a few weeks I literally will have no time until after the first of the year. So, if I go it will need to be in the next couple of weeks.
So, should I keep making excuses and not go? Should I go, and risk my nerves, because I really don't want to be there? I may not last the weekend. (Please don't suggest being honest with her, because believe me she is not the kind of person that would take the truth well.)
The other thing is, I could really use a few days away from kids. But, I know I won't be able to rest that weekend, even if I went.
Should I feel guilty? Am I being selfish?